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The year in which I followed the process and my subconscious to see what kind of story would emerge from that. What would be my story, who am I as a storyteller? As an artist? As a person? (a confessional one I suppose?)

"true storytelling is the telling of life, isn't it?" - from the documentary Fear of 13

...."Life is my favourite art" - Ulises Carrión

“Nothing in Art is achieved by will alone. It is achieved by docilely submitting to the subconscious.” - Odilon Redon

I consider this project the continuation of project Flux. I was still 'searching for' identity (as an artist+person) at the beginning of this project.

And I was still intrigued by Carl Jung's archetype of the 'persona'; the mask, the barrier..

I kept asking myself

When am I most myself?
When I let go of all notions of who I should be? I can truly let others in. (something that used to be so scary.)how to communicate that which i learnt , with another? make it into a story?

".....Happily, some of them kept records of their troubles. You'll learn from them—if you want to. Just as someday, if you have something to offer, someone will learn something from you. It's a beautiful reciprocal arrangement. And it isn't education. It's history. It's poetry.”- J.D. Salinger, The Catcher in the Rye

"ideal human" -> "total human" ?

"we construct an ideal based upon what we think others want/expect us to be"

who am i if i'm always [trying to be] what [i think] others want me to be? someone else; masquée? a static ideal i try to cling onto instead of flowing and growing?

((( “And maybe it is only by finding yourself that you can feel the true intensity of becoming close to another person.”-David Levithan.
perhaps? :) )))

"i exist as i am, that is enough" - Walt Whitman

how to connect with someone? - taking off the "mask". stepping beyond one's own constructs and pretensions... allowing oneself to be vulnerable? as that is also part of who one is. and don't we all have our vulnerabilities?

this research resulted in a performance with two parts:
1. projection mapping, audio
2. spoken word.
a one-on-one encounter with my audience. as an experiment; to see if i could connect with the audience by being simply myself as an artist/person. - why? because to me, that is one of the most beautiful, most human things.. the feeling of human connection
is art (to me).

the conversations i had as a result of this 'incentive'(the performance) turned it into a rich experience. the [vulnerable,intimate] conversations i had were the actual artwork to me. so..thank you to those who stepped inside the performance space. :)

"there is no charm equal to tenderness of heart" - Jane Austen

final performance:

↑preview of research collage(s) + animation cells exhibited in seperate space, next to performance space↓

(during CLICKBAIT expo, akv st.joost, 30th june-4th july 2018)

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part of the concept development, top being most recent :

prototype performance:

animation test:

animations - made with ink on animation cells

a touch of absurdism to brighten one's day

prototype spoken word performance 18-3-2018

( https://vimeo.com/263398670 )

eventually my own struggles with who i should be/who i am became the basis for my story+performance.

'kunst ist seelsorge' - cover of diary. kept during dark days in the process. contains reflections and quotations to heal, learn, grow - > to get an answer to my question

first idea for installation; barrier between two people. one has to move through it. attempt at illustrating "how to connect". though there still was no story.